Clearing the air before I go
They won't delete my account unfortunately. Nobody likes my input anyway so I don't know why they won't but I suppose it doesn't matter really.
Firstly.
I never intended to offend any of the WL's ladies on this website.
Jessica Luscious called me a bastard because my "dream punt" was to have a WL pretend to enjoy time with me. I still don't know why that offended her so much she would call me that. I'm sorry, I wasn't meaning to offend WL's when I said that.
kaycee.k thinks that I hate women. Completely untrue. The opposite is the reality and I wouldn't feel this way if I hated women. However I can see how what I've said comes across so I accept that my own communication of my feelings has let me down in this regard. I am sorry. I don't hate women. I don't hate WL's. I respect all women. I don't think WL's are "money hungry whores" and I wasn't trying to imply you are untrustworthy. That was poor communication on part which is something that I fail at a lot.
But also I feel like before you shout me down try and see where I'm coming from. The person nobody cares about. The person that no woman would look at. The person that has no place living. The person that is the proverbial "not even if we were the last two people left on this planet" and then try and see why I don't believe your thinking. You may be right but I'll never know and you'll never be able to prove it so all I have are my non-paid experiences and that's the world where you do care. It doesn't really matter anymore. I wasn't trying to offend WL's so again I'm sorry. Truly.
Maybe a few, some, a lot or most women aren't superficial. Maybe I've had bad luck. Maybe I'm right. It doesn't matter anymore. It's too late. Some of what I said might be considered misogynistic which again was not my intention. It's just a fact of my life. Other people have different experiences. What I say on here doesn't represent who I am though. It's just the only way I can freely discuss being a worthless piece of shit without embarrassment. It's too easy to express negativity in an anonymous capacity like this. So at times in expressing how pathetic of a combination of DNA I am people it comes across as misogyny. Not my intention.
I was going to say something else but I've forgotten. Thanks to people who participated in the blog discussions. I hope love really does exist. I hope reincarnation doesn't.
I said before that I don't belong in this world and I don't. The "punting" world or the "real" world. All I wanted was to feel like a lady enjoyed my time but I'm too far gone and fucked in the head to ever notice if she would or not. If one did there is no way to know if it was because of the money or not.
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