12 weeks - Cialis is not my friend
A bit over 12 weeks and I can honestly say Cialis is not my friend. With great hope the first one was taken 3 weeks ago and I waited with bated breath for the awakening of the beast.
Hmmm, I feel like shit, sore legs and back, with cramps thrown in for good measure. A few glasses of wine and a splitting headache. And a nasty rash that has only just started to subside after having to give the Cialis a miss or go crazy scratching myself to pieces. Sigh, no joy from the little yellow tablet so have an appointment with the doc next week to talk about alternatives. When I double checked on the side effects of Cialis I had most of them including some serious flushing so no deal for now.
I try not to think of it as humiliation (hard not to), rather a step on the journey to recovery, but the return visit from previously mentioned fuck buddy was not a happy occasion. Maybe it was the misfortune of last time or my mental condition around it (probably both) but it all seemed very clinical and stilted as she tried to bring a very recalcitrant member to attention. Full marks to her for trying with great gusto but there is something about being worried you might pee all over your object of passion that night that just gnaws away at the back of your mind so not enough of a response to end up in sex......lucky I didn't get my tongue cut too .
Some experimentation along the way has shown some info from one of the nurses to be correct. She told me that an orgasm can be achieved without an erection and she is 100% right. The pleasure of stimulation is still there, just without the erection so a vibrator applied and rubbed in sensitive places did indeed result in a very pleasurable response. Just need to work on the small amount of urine that escaped as part of the process, normal from what I have heard. One thing for sure is that there won't be any morning piss horn sex in the future .
How do I feel? Well a little disappointed as have always thought I could beat the odds and finish ahead of the field but have only to remind myself of a couple of things. First that I have been lucky and it's nipped in the bud. Second that time is a healer on this and 3 months is early days yet.....patience, not my strongest suit.
So now thinking a visit to a very understanding WL when next in Brisbane might be in order with plenty of time to ease into the action and (hopefully) relax enough to bet the monkey off my back.
Cheers AX
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