Tonight on my way home I saw a young girl bidding a tearful goodbye to her mother, who waved to her from a taxi and promised she would see her tomorrow.

 

At least you'll get to see your Mummy again, little one. I have to wait until I run out of tomorrows. I wanted to hug her and tell her how lucky she was but, in this day and age, I'd be arrested.

 

Once upon a time I would never have noticed a scene like this. Now it upsets me. So it goes .

 

When this wound scabs over, I will remember the moment of its opening and write about it. In some way, turning the experience into a story cheapens it, but it's the only way I know how to deal with it.

 

 

 

 

For too long now, there were secrets in my mind

For too long now, there were things I should've said

In the darkness, I was stumbling for the door

To find a reason, to find the time, the place, the hour

 

Waiting for the winter sun and the cold light of day

The misty ghost of childhood fears

The pressure is building and I can't stay away.

 

I throw myself into the sea

Release the wave,

Let it wash over me

To face the fear I once believed

The tears of the dragon for you and for me

 

Where I was, I had wings that couldn't fly

Where I was, I had tears I couldn't cry

My emotions, frozen in an icy lake

I couldn't feel them until the ice began to break

I have no power over this, you know I'm afraid

The walls I built are crumbling, the water is moving,

I'm slipping away.

 

I throw myself into the sea

Release the wave,

Let it wash over me

To face the fear I once believed

The tears of the dragon for you and for me

 

Slowly I awake, slowly I rise

The walls I built are crumbling,

The water is moving,

I'm slipping away.

 

I throw myself into the sea

Release the wave,

Let it wash over me

To face the fear I once believed

The tears of the dragon for you and for me