Ok so I am at a complete loss at the moment as to what to do.
I have had some extremely good news over the last two days, and this has meant that in the near future my life and situation is about to change. And these events are all a great part of life and opportunities that cannot be turned down. But leading a double life is so hard! Those that do know me know of my struggles to keep everything balanced and to make sure that Dahlia is hidden from those in her alter ego's life.
My dilemma is that I love being an escort. I really enjoy what I do, I have fun, I meet great people and I do not (and never have) felt ashamed of what I do. If any of you take the time to know me you will see that I don't actually do this for the money, and I'm not a typical WL i.e. doing this to put myself through uni or in financial trouble. I just really enjoy what I do. But now that my situation is about to change, I feel like I may have to force myself to retire much earlier than I wanted or expected. It is just going to become extremely hard to keep this up without anyone knowing and to explain my constant absences.
I guess my point is what do you do? what would YOU do? Do you continue to do something that you enjoy even though it is going to be increasingly difficult? But it is not like escorting is a hobby, I guess it is a way of life and something much more meaningful than a hobby. And I was getting so excited to be on PP and to see where it takes me. I guess this part of my journey I was really looking forward to be but I may just have to cut it short, even though I really don't want to.
At a loss!!